hi

seems to me that everytime i blog its getting more and more depressin.... moody and all. ha
Life is interesting.... and complicated. You know i feel like i've been swept by the currents of fate and due to past sins i now dwell in the realms of uncertainty. perphaps i've dine wrong so great that God has to punish me with what he does now. Yet i try and try to pick myself up again and again and again. still i fell....... fell...... fall into that deep abyss. Still i try with the strength in me to always look on the positive side of life, try so hard to convince myself that each new day holds great new hope for me and that i must push on.

sigh

Life's mockery. i live in a tainted world, i need glasses to see the path of truth and light but however things are always in grey and never in black or white. To thread the fine line would mean to play with fire and yet i toeline it time and again just so that i can get burnt? *cynical laughter* If there is a God where is my direction now? Where is my North and who is holdin onto that freaking compass? all the pieces are loose and i need someone who can see the bigger picture to enlighten me about life and piece up the jigsaw.

Things i'll like to share. Some 1 billion people go to bed hungry everynight but another 5 billion go hungry with no food for the soul. Which will you rather??? i rather neither but sometimes we tend to fall into one or 2 of the categories. sigh heh i'm seriously confused. who ever said god is fair or life is fair?

pray that you out there.... the one who is reading this may be a messenger and give me faith. pls enlighten me and show the way. Amen